The Story

One cold rainy day, sat in my car journalling, waiting for my next appointment to begin, God spoke to me about walking the path of authenticity. I was at a Y junction in my life, to fake, or to be authentic.

So many times in life we can choose to fake it, go through the motions, both in life and faith. Look like “good” Christians, declare the right things, say the right prayers, quote the right scriptures, even act in the correct manner. Or we can choose authenticity, to be true to our thoughts and feelings, open about our struggles and doubts, choosing to trust, have faith, and keep walking despite it. It may look messy, we might not be able to sing all the worship songs, we might have more questions than answers, we might shed many tears, we might find it difficult to even squeeze out a prayer. God doesn’t look at our actions, he looks at our hearts, he doesn’t want fakers, he wants authenticity. Authentic faith. The road less trodden, the road harder to traverse, but the road most rewarding, most glorifying.

I am choosing daily to walk the path of authenticity, and this blog is the writings of my unfinished story. It is raw, it is vulnerable, it strives to be open and honest. I hope we can walk this path together, and find in our vulnerability and honesty, encouragement, wisdom, and strength to keep walking.


4 Comments on “The Story”

  1. Craig Ballinger says:

    Thank you for sharing so openly. Life is full of challenges and remaining faithful to God till the end can be both the hardest and easiest of things – we fall so short of His holiness. Seeing your struggles and desires for His children is encouraging honest. It has been said:

    “What is this faith in Christ?”
    It is faith: –
    In a historical Christ
    In a living Christ
    In a Christ personal to each of us.

    He must be personal to us. He must be our saviour, in our {highlight “our”} situation our needs, loves, shames, sins. He must not only live but mingle with our lives. He must charge himself with our souls. We believe in the Holy Spirit. We have in Christ as the Spirit the sanctifier of our single lives, the Redeemer of our hearts, the Helper of our most private straits, the Inspirer of our most deep and sacred confessions. We must have one to wring from us “My Lord and my {highlight “my”} God.” We need not only the risen Christ, nor the heavenly, but the spiritual, the intimate, the Husband of our soul in its daily vigor, its daily conflict, its daily fear, its daily joy, its daily sorrow, its daily faith, hope, love. We need, O how we need, a Lord and Master, a lover and King of our single, inmost, shameful, precious souls, the giver and goal of our most personal salvation, a Conscience within our conscience, and a Heart amidst our Heart and its ruins and its resurrection.

    That is the Christ we need, and thank God for His unspeakable gift, that is the Christ we have. (P.T. Forsyth)

    Thank you for sharing your knowledge of the living Christ in your life. A Christ that bears all is faithful and true to His children.

    Perfection is not sinlessness, but the loyalty of the soul by faith to Christ when all is said and done. The final judgment is not whether we have at every moment stood, but whether having done all we stand-stand at the end, stand as a whole.

    So again I thank you.

    God bless and Merry Christmas.

    • ejreading says:

      Thank you for your encouragement Craig, and than you for taking the time to comment.
      “We need not only the risen Christ, nor the heavenly, but the spiritual, the intimate, the Husband of our soul in its daily vigor, its daily conflict, its daily fear, its daily joy, its daily sorrow, its daily faith, hope, love.” How true this is! How I long to know Christ in these daily feelings more.
      Always interested to hear what you have to say on my posts.
      – Emily

  2. Sue says:

    I am a friend if Craigs and it is amasing to see someone as much troubles as I have had. Check me out at

    • ejreading says:

      Hi, thanks for stopping by to read my blog. I hope that it encourages you. Life can be hard at times, and troubles seem overwhelming, but God is bigger than all of that. Just gotta keep holding on and trusting. I look forward to reading more of your blog :)
      Feel free to leave a comment whenever you like, I love hearing feedback (good or bad) on what I write. -Emily

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )


Connecting to %s