Five Minute Friday : WonderPosted: November 30, 2012
It’s time for Five Minute Friday with Lisa-Jo and all the other wonderful people who link up over there. 5 minutes writing, no editing, no over thinking, just plain writing from the heart, at stupid o’clock.
This week’s prompt is….
I’ve used that word in my head a lot this week “Wonder” I’m left wondering.
I wonder in good ways and in bad ways. Some wonder is because of grief, or confusion, or a lack of understanding. Other wonder is simple the inability to take in the awesomeness, or depth, or weight of the moment.
I wonder why things didn’t go as planned. I wonder if things will go as I hope. I wonder why I am ill again, when all I have done is give Him praise, when all seemed to be going so well, when the timing couldn’t seem to be worse. I wonder about it all. I know My God is in control, I know He will make beauty out of it, and I trust Him in that, but I wonder why it must be like this, and I wonder where it is going.
I wonder if Jesus really did descend to hell. It seems a little like a void point to many, but for me, now, in the moment, it is so very important. Did God’s own son go to hell? Does he understand that pain of watching the one you love go there? I wonder at the things I may never know the answer to, the mysteries of God.
I think upon the sacrifice God made as he became man, Emmanuel, Jesus, and lived here on this earth. I think upon the rootless, homeless, life he lived. I think of the suffering endured each day, culminating in hanging on that cross. I think about His grace, His mercy, His plan of redemption. I think upon my life and the ways in which he has turned it, shaped it, moulded it into beauty. I wonder at it all, all the awesomeness, and holiness, and beauty.
I wonder at so much, and yet it is only Him that causes me to wonder in silence, for there are no words to describe all that He is to me, and all that He has done for me.